Tuesday, 27 May 2025

THE MAN WHO FELL FROM GRACE WITH HIS BODY

 

THE MAN WHO FELL FROM GRACE

WITH HIS BODY

Fiction by strzeka (05/25)

 

Jennings rose to fame for the first time at the age of ten. Without even being asked or given any instruction, he was entered into the eighty metre hurdles event at his school by an over‑enthusiastic teacher. Children are often encouraged to attempt things a little beyond their expected capabilities or more advanced for their age. Jennings not only beat all his fellow competitors, he also broke the junior athletic record for his class. Within the hour, a local tv news crew arrived to collect phone video from everyone who had shot the event and to interview the charming young man who was still a little confused by the attention his run was attracting and who coyly smiled directly at the camera lens between his replies, melting the hearts of thousands of viewers who were enchanted by Jennings’ modesty and handsome features. Anyone could see he was going to grow into a ladykiller—a man whose mere presence in a room could swerve attention and disrupt conversations.

 

Jennings’ record run was featured in national news the next day and the local station’s skilfully edited insert was reused with similar effect. The lad was far too young to assault with an aggressive interview and the item ended with the station’s best wishes and hopes for the future.

 

Jennings was himself bemused by his sudden unexpected success and the attention he had attracted. The school authorities contacted his parents, advising them on suitable paths to take should they decide to invest in their son’s athletic future. Being too young for the cantankerous teenage hormone to affect his opinion, Jennings agreed that it would be a fine thing to actually train to be a proper athlete and maybe run other races, not just the hurdles.

 

He graduated to the first year at his new school, a secondary school for the big kids. There was a degree of hazing to be tolerated from the second year pupils who derided the newcomers and were determined to extract undeserved retribution for the torment they had undergone themselves. Jennings was very much at the mercy of his seniors until a week later. The boys in his class had been taken on a two mile run around the houses and Jennings led the pack from the start. It was only then that the teacher discovered that he was in the presence of the prize‑winning hurdler who had made a name for himself last year. Instead of chiding the boy for being uncooperative and trying to get ahead of the pack, the teacher, Jack Wankel, decided to court the boy’s favour and encourage him to train extra curricula under his tutelage, in the hope of a little reflected glory. Jennings was open to the offer of extra training after school and at weekends and with the permission of his parents, he embarked on a regime of calisthenics to strengthen his core.

 

Jennings gained a kind of immunity from teasing and bullying because of his athletic prowess, as did those few supportive friends he made from among his classmates. Whereas most boys were content to kick a ball around for an hour or two while it was still light out, Jennings’ regime was far more demanding and it took a special kind of understanding from a twelve or thirteen year old to accept that his friend could usually never join in for a game of five a side because he was concentrating on weird stuff like lead and trail leg drills, whatever that was.

 

As if his lithe, muscular frame and friendly handsome features were not blessing enough, Jennings’ puberty struck early and powerfully. All the boys regularly compared the appearance of dark fuzz on their upper lips and the more daring ones revealed pubic hair when they had a suitably impressive amount. In this way, the new pecking order was determined. Jennings was too discrete to boast but he had been shaving for six months already and the other boys had seen the ring of dark hair around his big dick and balls, not to mention the dark hair on his legs and arms. The others held him in too much respect to tease him about it. Jennings was a little self‑conscious at first but when there were no unnecessary comments, he was more confident to be naked among his friends. He felt like a man among boys. Slightly shameful, displaying something the others were not yet ready for. They looked up to him, both literally and figuratively. Jennings was the tallest in the class and the most admired.

 

Unsurprisingly, Jennings was always the school’s major sports star. Jack Wankel watched the boy develop from a lanky freshman into a towering example of the classical ideal of masculine health and strength. As if to compound the connection with its Greek origin, Jennings at age eighteen bore a thick dense black moustache which curled around the corners of his mouth. He ran an electric razor around his stubble every two or three days and despaired of ever appearing clean‑shaven because of the way his overly generous chest hair rose up his neck and joined with his beard. The same applied to the back of his neck, where his hair and the fur covering his back met in a tangle of diffuse hair.

 

His ultra‑masculine appearance was appreciated by sports publications, especially those catering for a certain niche audience. Jennings was never pictured nude as a minor but there were several suggestive and enticing shots which made their way into aficionados’ collections. Photographic shoots became more frequent and explicit after his eighteenth birthday. Jennings was advised against too much exposure of the wrong kind if he wished to retain respect as a professional athlete. He understood well enough and none of his photo essays ever breached the limits of good taste.

 

Jennings was intelligent enough to gain a three year place at a Grade B university of his choice, to begin within five years. There was time for him to concentrate on his preparations for the forthcoming Olympic Games. He was granted both a stipend and a sponsorship to ease his economic transition into athletic adulthood, and a savings account matured when he reached twenty‑one which provided a generous sum, which he invested in a powerful retro motorbike with a petrol engine. He loved its appearance and its odours of oil and hot metal. He discovered the sensuousness of black leather against his naked skin and enjoyed the anonymity which a full‑face motorcycle helmet provided. Kitted out in his expensive motorcycle gear, he was free to circulate among admiring men who had little notion that a famous gay idol and Olympic hopeful was in their midst, hungry for the companionship of ordinary men unrelated to the stifling world of professional athletics.

 

He was befriended by another biker who rode an almost identical model and whose attention had been attracted by Jennings’ lush dark facial hair which was visible under his visor. His name was Joel Lloyd and he went by the name Joe. He was thirty‑three years old when Jennings was twenty‑one. Jennings looked up to him as an older brother and Lloyd found pleasure in Jennings’ youthful naïveté and bashful respect for someone as compromised by body hair as he was himself. Lloyd also had an unusual distinguishing feature. He had lost the lower part of his right leg in a road accident and walked on an artificial leg, usually well concealed inside his leathers.

 

Joe had little interest in sport or athletics of any kind. He had not known about his young friend’s prowess and was temporarily astonished that someone so bearlike, hairy and heavily bearded, so macho, was in fact a fleet‑footed runner hopeful of participating in the next Olympic Games. Joe was gradually tempting the boy into accepting his amorous advances, not by any material bribes but merely through trustworthiness and reliability. Jennings occasionally sought out his company after a particularly gruelling weekend of training or a long session of psychological stress, after which the embrace of his naked amputee friend in Joe’s small apartment was more than welcome and provided the reassurance missing elsewhere in his testing sports regime. The two men took great pleasure in their hirsute wild appearance. Joe was covered in curly black fur including the stump of his leg. Jennings enjoyed feeling Joe run his stump up and down his legs when they lay together, thick black beards melding as they became intimate.

 

The sport media followed Jennings regularly as the selections for Olympic participation approached and passed. Jennings had been almost guaranteed a place to represent his country and there was an increased interest in his prospects which naturally included more photo essays, many of them blatantly homoerotic. With Joe’s encouragement, Jennings began to flaunt his ultramasculine features more, allowing portrait images of his facial features and his magnificent beard and moustache. Photos of Jennings had become a favourite collector’s item for gentlemen who referred to themselves as bears and wolves. Both genuine and altered photographs circulated, some of them showing him naked, endowed with a phallus of phenomenal proportions and a generously‑filled scrotum. Jennings knew about the discrete interest in his ultra masculine features and after overcoming some initial discomfort, had learned to accept and later approve of the erotic attention. He reasoned that if his racing career were to end by the age of twenty‑five, as so many did, he would still have many years in which to benefit from selling images of himself.

 

Jennings favoured cycling above all other forms of exercise for his thighs and glutes. He preferred to ferry his racing bike to a twenty mile route on country roads encircling the town he lived in. Late one evening, he had finished a gruelling day of repetitive routines and wished to clear his mind. He wanted to feel the cool evening air on his skin and to hear the sounds of the countryside as nature’s day shift relinquished possession to its night life. He checked his timetable and decided he could unwind by taking one of two easy shorter routes, both of which would point him in the direction of home and a good night’s rest. At the same time, Barry McBride turned his eighteen‑wheeler off the motorway in order to take advantage of a quieter country route to his destination. Eighteen miles to the south, farmer Giles Brook turned his harvester for its penultimate run that evening, satisfied with his early crop of new potatoes. It had been a good year so far and with luck, it might be a bumper year.

 

Jennings was wary of the approaching dusk and spent several minutes searching for and attaching flashing head and tail lights. McBride took advantage of the entrance to a disused quarry to pull over to finish a mug of coffee and eat a sandwich bought from the last services he had stopped at. Brook finished his run and spent several minutes detaching his harvester equipment and ensuring it was ready to continue for the next day. He spend a couple of minutes filling his favourite oversized Oom Paul pipe with burley shag and enjoyed sucking on the smoke before settling the pipe between his teeth and climbing back up into his tractor for the four mile trip back to his farmstead home. It was a beautiful evening and he drove slowly, content with having the narrow road to himself at this time of the evening.

 

The accident enquiry was concluded without resolution. Neither of the drivers had relevant cabcam footage, as the worst destruction happened behind their cabs. McBride claimed he swerved in order to avoid hitting Brook’s tractor, but Brook insisted he had already made room for an approaching cyclist he could indistinctly see approaching in his rear view mirror. The collision was comparatively minor but its consequences for the Olympic hopeful were devastating. McBride’s trailer jack‑knifed just enough to force its load to shift, causing Jennings’ bicycle handlebars and forearms to be crushed to pulp. He was left with a bleeding left stump and a destroyed right hand still attached by a strip of flesh.

 

In the resulting confusion, McBride and Brook were both threatened online for causing such appalling injuries to one of the country’s most promising Olympic heroes and both found it necessary to withdraw into semi‑retirement. Both men were broken with contrition, wishing that they had not tarried, had not wasted time over coffee or lighting a pipe. If any of those involved had been a split second later on the scene, none of this could have happened.

 

Jennings made a good physical recovery, unsurprisingly for a man in such superb physical condition before his injury. His ruined forearms were amputated leaving him with stumps ten centimetres long below his elbows. They healed perfectly and were soon concealed under the thick pelt of curly black hair. There was some official discussion about his future following his disablement. It was obvious that the Olympics had become an impossible dream. He watched them with a mixture of fascination and distaste while his stumps healed.

 

In his gently persuasive manner, Joe suggested that Jennings share living arrangements on a permanent basis. His apartment was perfectly familiar, a home from home. Jennings knew that Joe’s love for him would guarantee some quality of life for a man without hands. There was so many actions which were suddenly beyond his capabilities. Joe held Jennings’ short stumps gently in his hairy fists and promised to be there for his disabled young friend. There would be no change in Joe’s love. For the first time since the accident, Jennings was moved to tears with mutual feelings and relief that Joe would not reject him because of his mutilated body, any more than it might occur to Jennings to reject Joe because of his missing foot. Joe admitted quietly after a long slow session of mutual masturbation that he found his lover’s fresh stumps intensely erotic and that despite any resultant difficulties, Joe would enjoy seeing Jennings maximally disabled. He suggested using only one of the artificial arms, allowing the other stump to remain visible. Jennings agreed with alacrity. His fur made prosthetic use uncomfortable.

 

Adapting to life without hands was already challenging, on a par with any athletic challenge. Wearing only one of the devices at any time was a welcome compromise. Gradually Jennings became expert at functioning with a single prosthesis and hook. Sometimes the left, sometimes the right. Only when he ventured out in public did he wear the pair, bearing them as unself‑consciously as he had his natural hands. Once again, national media approached the former athlete and for eighteen months, he appeared on talk shows regularly explaining ad nauseum how he had adjusted to life as an amputee, accepting his status as a disabled man, a victim of circumstance left helpless and a trailblazer in adapting to old‑fashioned body‑powered prosthetics. Over and over again, he insisted he was just the old Jennings, with hooks instead of hands. He never failed to lift them for camera close‑ups, slowly opening each hook and allowing them to snap shut with a metallic click.

 

Jennings put on extra weight following the end of his athletic career. He was capable of riding a bicycle on a track or other venue where there was no public traffic. His hooks were incapable of operating standard brakes but he was reluctant to invest time and effort in converting a racing bike to suit his requirements. Joe altered his car’s insurance policy to allow Jennings to drive as a disabled driver and had an adaptive ring fitted to the steering wheel. The car was five years old and almost unsalable because of the modifications to its users’ disabilities. Joe never attempted to drive using his prosthetic foot, which had a rigid ankle and little lateral movement. He was sprawled across the back seat with Jennings at the wheel with a giant bag of flat‑pack furniture accessories on the passenger seat. Jennings’ reaction to seeing a white van suddenly approaching him on the wrong side of the road was to jerk his arm stump as sharply as possible, causing the heavy furniture components to jam themselves under his prosthesis. The car rolled down an embankment, hit an electric substation on the way and came to rest in two halves three metres below the road surface. The floor around the driver’s seat, weakened by the alterations for Joe, had collapsed and scissored Jennings’ feet. Neither passenger lost consciousness. Joe overcame his shock first and began scrabbling at the chaotic pile of purchases as outside assistance began to arrive. Rescuers were shaken to discover that the driver was limbless. He had hooks instead of hands and bleeding stumps instead of feet. There was no sign of his feet. They were under the wreckage, destroyed and useless. An approaching siren signalled relief and Jennings, still feeling no pain thanks to a massive rush of adrenalin, allowed himself to fall into semi‑consciousness. Joe travelled with him in the ambulance and received a tranquilliser and a plaster for a cut on his forehead.

 

There was little to be done except tidy the sites of the wounds. Jennings’ surgeon summoned the hospital’s chief prosthetist and they jointly decided that the patient would be best served by a pair of stumps of identical length, long enough for him to find below‑knee prostheses a reasonable and comfortable compromise. Neither professional realised the identity of the cripple who was about to undergo his third and fourth amputations. Joe’s identity and relationship to the patient was clarified. He learned only that the patient’s damaged limbs would be repaired in order to enable the use of prosthetic legs. Joe nodded at learning what he already knew and was shortly invited to return home if he felt capable. The hospital receptionist ordered a taxi and gave him a travel voucher. This time it was Joe who was overcome with emotion on behalf of his friend and he wept for their lost futures.

 

Unknown to Joe, Jennings was negotiating an agreement with Skinflix Plus for a series of short videos and photo essays featuring and concentrating on his extraordinarily hairy body and the exciting contrast with his artificial arms. Jennings learned that there were people who were fascinated by amputees and that some even wished to have stumps of their own. It was something which Jennings found amusing. To his own surprise, he had learned to be satisfied with his hooks. He did not use them with any great elegance because Joe helped him dress, eat and open drinks cans and so on but he was not shy about being seen wearing them or allowing his naked stumps to be on public view. He saw little moral difference in people surreptitiously photographing him and being paid for photoshoots which emphasized his stumps and hooks and whatever else the viewers wanted to see. It took several weeks before word reached the controllers at Skinflix of one of their prospective star’s additional amputations. The mental image of the ultimate hairy handless bastard writhing with footless legs in front of the camera proved overwhelmingly erotic for the ceo, who ejaculated for the first time in over four months at a mere mental image. If he had anything to do with it, the would‑be Olympic runner, now a quad amp, had a long and lucrative career ahead of him under the ceo’s personal tutelage.

 

This time, Joe proved to be superbly useful as a source of information about what Jennings might expect from being fitted with a matching pair of artificial legs. The prosthetist was keen to sell a new design from Iceland, the unexpected capital of prosthetic development, which was responsive to uneven surfaces and even had a connector to recharge your phone. It cost as much as four electric cars and Jennings needed two of them. Joe said he should start slowly. He should get used to the sensation of no longer having feet or ankles, and then to basic artificial feet. Wooden or composite plastic feet with rigid ankles and rigid soles which he could shove into his favourite boots and relearn to walk in with a rolling motion. Everyone would realise he was somehow disabled but he would be walking on two legs again and his hooks would be unencumbered by walking canes and support frames. To all intents and purposes, he would be his old self again.

 

There was a period when Jennings was mobile only while seated in a wheelchair. His arm stumps were too short to reach the wheels and so Joe spent as much time at home with him as possible. The ceo of Skinflix used this time to acquaint himself better with the ex‑Olympian, as Jennings was now advertised. The men met several times, Jennings stripping naked in his bedroom so the ceo could better appraise his remnant limbs. As expected, Jennings’ pelt had once again regrown to cover his stumps and he lay naked with his manhood also semi‑concealed by fur, his truncated limbs looking much as they would if Jennings had been born limbless. It had been an unexpected and unwelcome route, but the ceo assured Jennings that he was possibly the most handsome and erotically desirable male quadruple amputee on the planet. The man assisted his latent star to replace the right arm prosthesis and held the pen while Jennings positioned his hook to grip it in order to sign a contract to appear in ten video productions including penetration and twenty‑four photoshoots for international distribution. At the age of twenty‑seven, limbless and facially at his maximum degree of attractiveness, Jennings was set to become a millionaire halfway through his contract with the opportunity to earn yet more if the ceo could arrange a part in a major cinematic production as a stunt man. Fit amputees were a rarity and earned well.

 

Jennings allowed his physical progress to lax. He was a film star, or might be one day soon. He was no longer interested in his prosthetist’s recommendations to trial the latest electromechanical hand or test a new row of bendable toes. On the contrary, Jennings had done research of his own into the history of artificial limbs and was intrigued by some of the devices used by knights and kings and noblemen who lost limbs in battle. What might it be like to don an iron hand onto his short stump? It would fall off. It would need a sheath above the elbow. Instead of an iron hand, maybe he could use an old‑fashioned hook wrought from cast iron. It would not do anything except allow him to nudge things or let him carry a bucket but it seemed incongruously desirable and he arranged to have a pair made. The unmovable hooks were larger than anything he had worn before and were also less practical. Jennings was excited by becoming a film star with four impractical prosthetic limbs. His cast iron hooks were on order. What kinds of artificial feet might he choose to ensure an unavoidable swagger and limp?

 

Joe had years of experience with various artificial feet and could recite their pros and cons as well as any professional prosthetist. Jennings was initially fitted with below‑knee sockets with aluminium pylons and basic feet with flesh‑coloured foot shells to enable shoes and boots to fit better. Joe pointed out the design which had been prevalent before the Eighties. Composite legs in one piece with slightly tilted feet, requiring the amputee to wear shoes at all times in order to stay level. Jennings leg stumps were both shorter than Joe’s, so Joe recommended that if Jennings wanted to wear completely rigid lower legs, he should enquire about leather thigh corsets which would hold the prostheses to his stumps, extending far up his thighs. Jennings’ legs would appear to be completely artificial, covered in leather and steel and the oddly coloured composite material. His hairy leg stumps would be hidden but would make for a dramatic appearance in some as yet unplanned cinematic shot.

 

Jennings found illustrations and ancient photographs of military veterans fitted with a variety of primitive artificial limbs. The most common solution to replace a leg was a wooden peg leg and Jennings marvelled at images of insouciant ex‑soldiers calmly demonstrating their prowess at standing on a pair of wooden peg legs. Jennings considered the pros and cons of learning to emulate them. The old soldiers all gripped walking sticks or leant on long crutches, something which Jennings would find awkward and inconvenient. He put thoughts of peg legs from his mind with the arrival of his iron hooks which were in fact mirror‑polished steel with fifteen centimetre diameter hooks tapering gradually to an elegant curve. The black carbon sockets resembled the shape of his missing arms and in turn were attached to black leather cuffs with three broad straps closed by silver buckles.

 

Jennings had little hope of ever donning the arms himself. Joe would have to help him disable himself completely. The hooks were next to useless for anything practical. They were intended to replace a missing arm inside sleeves to prevent them from flapping around. Joe was as fascinated by the devices as Jennings and suggested that he continue his habit of wearing only one artificial arm. One useless hook combined with a short hairy stump might be surprisingly useful. Once again, Jennings took note of how his fur was hidden by an artificial limb. He found it intensely erotic, the more so because he could touch his erection with the big hook but not manipulate his genitals in any meaningful way. The inability drove his libido further towards imminent release. Limblessness was the greatest turn‑on Jennings had experienced, a completely unexpected phenomenon without a logical explanation. Even catching sight of himself in a mirror with handless arms and footless legs was often enough to initiate a session of solitary love‑making. He could remember how he looked with full natural limbs, honed at great effort and expense to be among the best in the country. He lowered his short arm stumps to attempt masturbating his average length tool and was doubly aroused by his inability to do so. At times like this, he was distracted by the sensations coming from the tips of his leg stumps as he gyrated his legs in ecstasy.

 

He landed his first film roles. In his first production, he was the unexpected catch for a buxom woman following a blind date. She removed his artificial limbs slowly and sensuously, using them to masturbate with before turning her attention to Jennings’ astonishingly hirsute stumps. In the second production, he played the victim of a mad professor who created misshapen idyllic men in his castle basement with three other amputee actors. They were all in their twenties or early thirties, they all had multiple amputations and were nothing less than enthusiastic about their altered bodies and artificial limbs, the more audacious, the better. One of them turned up with a companion on a single artificial leg and two long slender crutches. Jennings was curious about the man’s appearance and soon had a personal demonstration of the prostheses, which the other two colleagues also watched with sympathetic interest.

 

The meeting was instrumental in instilling the desire in Jennings for further body modifications. Although he was satisfied walking on rigid composite feet, attached by long leather thigh corsets, he was intrigued by the idea of using only one artificial leg and walking with the same type of stump crutches which the other quad amp, Dexter, used with his single above‑knee prosthesis. For the first time, Jennings was dissatisfied with his body image. He wanted to lose his knees in order to use a far greater variety of more demanding prostheses. With his arm stumps encased entirely in hollow crutches like Dexter’s and two short leg stumps fitted with short peg legs, he would be utterly reliant on Joe to fit his prostheses each morning and to attend to the interminable exchange of artificial arm and hook for the long hollow crutch. Once again, he had a raging erection and teased it with the tip of his cast iron hook.

 

The ceo of Skinflix showed some unaccustomed interest when Jennings arrived for rehearsals for the third production. The man, standing tall in an amply filled expensive suit and with a vast Magnum cigar in his jaw, stated that he had cast Jennings in the role although it originally called for an amputee missing both legs above the knee. An almost completely legless man. Jennings seized the opportunity without apologising for his overlong stumps and stated that he would gladly undergo surgery to shorten his leg stumps to rid them of knee joints in order to wear a more fascinating selection of artificial legs. The ceo was both surprised and impressed by this admission from a man whose future, he thought, was compromised by his knees. People wanted to see legless men, not amputees who could walk as well as anyone else. He hinted that it could be arranged for Jennings to receive a reconfiguration in order to comply with the auteur’s vision. Realising that rehabilitation from a double above‑knee amputation could require up to three months, he arranged for several scenes be completed in short order before Jennings was admitted to a private hospital for double amputation.

 

Joe was not best pleased, not wanting to be alone during the days and possibly weeks that Jennings would be away from home, but understood his desire to experience the sensation of two stumps of indeterminate length and more severe disability. One of the conditions of Jennings’ amputations was that Skinflix would foot the bill but would also dictate the length of each stump. Jennings was assured that he would become a double above‑knee amputee, with greater potential to feature in Skinflix’s amputee videos. Jennings was most intrigued by becoming more disabled in a way which he did not yet know. He knew he would be able to scoot around on a stumpless torso using hollow crutches if the situation required it. But the ceo had assured him that he would awaken with two above‑knee stumps.

 

The ceo demonstrated some method to his madness. He knew of Jennings’ desire to experience his existent disabilities to their maximum extent. He could have worn a set of electronic artificial arms with robotic hands but eschewed them for a single body‑operated device terminating in a primitive steel hook. He could have worn artificial legs sculpted and finished to look like natural legs but instead he rocked about on two obsolete limbs which made it obvious that the user was walking on two prosthetic legs. Most intriguing was Jennings’ desire to require customised hollow crutches for his arm stumps. He wished to lose both knees in order to allow him to use short prostheses or peg legs in order to make him immediately appear legless and extremely disabled. He would simultaneously lose the ability to operate his single steel hook because both arms stumps would be enclosed firmly by the hollow crutches without which Jennings would never walk again. That was the ceo’s plan. Jennings was to play the leading role in an entire series based on the successful one‑off production about a mad professor who created handsome amputee men in his basement. Mad professor Jennings would stand two metres tall in his black velvet cape and leather mask, standing on the world’s most audacious peg leg and supported by two unbelievably long hollow crutches. He would brainwash his fresh creations to worship his deviant crippled body.

 

The leg stumps were perfect, although Jennings would have personally preferred to have the long stump on the right rather than on the left. The other stump was as short as it was possible to make a stump while retaining some vestige of leg bone, the femur, which in Jennings’ case was useless for anything more than mesmerising movement beneath the flesh. But his left stump was long and phallic, as dictated by the ceo. It was perfect for use with a wide variety of artificial limbs and various devices. One thing was self‑evident, however. His leglessness would compel him to also lose the use of his artificial arms and hooks. He would never stand unassisted, thanks to the extreme shortness of his right stump. It was completely unsuitable for fitting with a prosthesis. He would forever be one‑legged from now on and that leg would also be artificial.

 

He returned to Joe in an electric wheelchair operated by a single hook. For the first time, Joe saw what Jennings had become and expressed his sorrow that his body modifications were the mirror image of how Jennings actually felt himself to be. He would have preferred to rock some kind of peg on a long right stump, with the left trouser leg folded up to advertise the empty space where a thigh once was. Jennings explained the timetable for prosthetic fitting and described how the manufacture of two pairs of hollow crutches were already in progress. One pair would enable him to walk on a short peg leg, the second pair could allow a standard issue left leg prosthesis to be fitted to the long stump. He would need further crutches when he returned to Skinflix to cope with the stunning peg leg.

 

Joe discussed Jennings’ increased degree of disability and requested a compromise while Jennings was at home. The electric wheelchair would shortly be collected by the hospital and Jennings would again be reliant on his old manual wheelchair until his thigh stump had healed further. Joe wanted Jennings to remain a wheelchair user at home when he could also wear at least one hook. He could understand the desire to be completely limbless, to all practical purposes, but he was unwilling to entertain Jennings’ desire when it was not strictly necessary. He promised that Jennings would always wear one artificial leg and his hollow crutches in public and he would assist him in his extreme helplessness. Without the crutches, Jennings would rely on his short furry arm stumps, not his artificial arms.

 

The short stump turned out to be more pleasurable than Jennings had envisaged. Its proximity to his genitals meant that he was now able to titillate his penis with the stump by waggling the remnant of his femur. He longed to grab his penis to complete his imminent orgasm but his stumps were inadequate and he lay back desperately gyrating his leg stumps for some additional friction. As always, the eroticism Jennings associated with disability by amputation finally won out and Joe later carried his friend to the bathroom where they showered together. Joe said he would print a sheath to protect the long leg stump while it healed. It would look like a butch engineer’s boot. Jennings could wear it while seated in his wheelchair. He would appear to have one short leg with a foot.

 

The print was ready two evenings later. Jennings lifted his stump to allow Joe to slide it on and they laughed at its incongruous appearance. Despite that, it was a useful addition to Jennings’ range of prosthetic devices and he usually wore it because it did protect his stump from accidental knocks and its thick outer layers prevented him from feeling anything with his stump.

 

Ten weeks later, the ceo issued requests for his selected cast to prepare themselves for shooting to commence in three weeks. For Jennings, it was a demand for him to be urgently fitted with his first peg leg and hollow crutches. Wheelchair access was impossible. As promised, Skinflix footed the bill for the new equipment. The peg leg was a wondrous object. Its smooth black socket was intentionally shaped to be cylindrical while its interior conformed precisely to Jennings’ stump. It narrowed at knee height and continued for twenty centimetres, terminating in a thick rubber ferrule. It was the very archetypical shape of a peg leg. It looked shocking, heavy, oddly familiar and Jennings found it overwhelmingly erotic, as his fitter noted without comment. Its matching hollow arm crutches, which the prosthetist referred to as peg arms, were of a similar design. Jennings arms disappeared entirely into the gleaming black sockets of his elegantly narrowing crutches which also terminated in unnecessarily conspicuous rubber ferrules. The prosthetist fitted the three peg limbs to Jennings trembling stumps. Thanks to their unforgiving rigidity, Jennings was able to remaining standing in his tripod pose while his balls emptied themselves of pent‑up pressure. He recovered his composure and apologised, acknowledged with a brief wave of the prosthetists’s hand. He remained in that position for many minutes, savouring the new sensations of crippling disability and prosthetic solutions battling for superiority over his three stumps. Finally, he attempted to move forward, lifting one peg arm and dragging his peg leg a short distance. The impossibility of the movement and his sudden realisation of being far more disabled than he had anticipated caused him to lower his head in embarrassment as he orgasmed again.

 

Over the following two weeks, his prosthetist coached Jennings to the point when he declared that the limbless man moved with considerable elegance. A longer peg leg would be available for the mere asking, together with the necessary matching peg arms, but he recommended that Jennings first become proficient on his shortish peg leg, learning a way of life without arms. His arms were auxiliary legs. He stabbed at the ground with fierce determination, lifting his trunk just enough to swing the sturdy peg leg forward far enough to take the next step with his peg arms. It was an unimagined nirvana of limblessness, stumps fitted with primitive replacement limbs when possible. A leg stump, annoyingly on the wrong side of his body, and useless arm stumps converted into crutches. All his equipment was expertly customised to fit his stumps perfectly. They were all comfortable. Joe assisted with donning and doffing. He could relax into perfect limblessness, presenting himself in public as a monstrous example of disability. Army veterans missing limbs would pity him as Jennings swung past them silently on his three ferrules. His peg leg pointed the way towards a future which no‑one who saw him could imagine.

 

Joe was secretly impressed by his limbless companion. Despite having declared his preference to see Jennings using his wheelchair at home, Joe genuinely enjoyed seeing his friend learning and adapting to his latest degree of disability. Jennings learned to balance on his peg arms just enough to allow a rhythmic gait. Peg arms, peg leg. Peg arms, peg leg. Almost silent progress. Jennings practised rising onto his ferrules from a horizontal position. The peg arm crutches were sturdy and reliable. Jennings found them his most favoured prostheses and was delighted that he would have several more pairs to match whatever lower limb equipment he had fitted to his stump. As a legless man, he was determined to strike a figure of admirable elegance and masculinity who engendered envy in other men despite his limblessness. Perhaps they would lust after their own artificial replacements for natural limbs, like the audience for Skinflix’s film productions.

 

The ceo decreed that production would begin on the following Monday. The cast, five disabled actors, were to present themselves to the studio at the following address at eight thirty in the morning and be prepared for a twelve hour sojourn on set. Studio time was only ten days and things had to keep to schedule. There was no time to waste. Unlike with other movies, artificial intelligence was not available for Skinflix productions because it was incapable of generating images of credible stumps and artificial limbs. It was not a topic which AI had been trained on, nor were there sufficient image sources for it to learn from. The ceo was of the opinion that only genuine stumps looked credible. His audience was more than capable of distinguishing the two.

 

The first shots were of Jennings’ character issuing instructions to a more ably bodied assistant who, despite being a quad, showed admirable skill at manipulating his hooks while standing on above‑knee pylons. Much attention was paid to Jennings’ tripod gait and to his lack of hands. He was fitted with a face‑hugging leather mask with padded eyeholes, a flat nose, no mouth but air intakes in the cheeks. It looked imposing. It disguised Jennings identity completely. The day’s shoot ended with the assistant fitting a pair of hooks to the mad professor’s arm stumps, after first removing the peg arms. The shots were out of chronical order, and made little sense apart from it being wise from a production point of view to shoot scenes with the necessary actors when they were available and present.

 

Much to Jennings’ distress, one of his fellow actors, Aslak, still possessed natural hands but was missing both legs in exactly the configuration which Jennings wished for himself. His left thigh was empty with a minimal stump and he sported half his right thigh. He wore a thigh corset bearing a genuine wooden leg and walked with long axillary crutches. The fact of his physical beauty coupled with the atrocious condition of his lower body ensured that he had no friends except for fellow amputees who he met and befriended on shoots such as this. He introduced himself to Jennings and expressed how much he admired Jennings’ body configuration. The two men were as twins after that. They were so similar that when they discovered that their birthdays differed by only ten days, neither found it notable. Aslak thought he was assisting Jennings by helping to remove the peg arms only to discover the short hairy stumps inside. The stumps were as useless as the peg arms when seated but not as inconvenient. Aslak had met several men without hands but Jennings’ stumps were uniquely meagre. Too short for effective use of below‑elbow prostheses and too long to benefit from full‑length above‑elbow arms with artificial elbows, which Aslak suspected Jennings would love learning to operate and rely on.

 

Several days later a sixth member of the cast appeared. He walked on prosthetic legs, that much was clear, but he himself seemed mainly preoccupied with exactly the full‑length arm prostheses which Aslak had thought about for Jennings. The newcomer was John Swift and he was late on the scene because of an annoying fault with his first ever pair of artificial arms. He had been present for the previous sessions of filming but because his role was so minor, he had sat very much back from the proceedings and watched his mentors from the lines, so to speak. In the intervening weeks, his healthy arms had been amputated a few centimetres above the elbows and he now boasted an almost completely healed pair of useful arm stumps to which artificial arms with a variety of different forearms and hooks could be fitted. The ceo had described how he needed a volunteer for a sequence where the armless mad professor used a peg arm to condemn Swift’s arms to be severed. Swift had wanted to be a double arm amputee since he was a boy after seeing a distant uncle with two artificial arms at a wedding reception. The two had never met again but the damage was done. Swift waited for acceptance of his role with his hands and arms intact before departing for the same private hospital which had created Jennings’ leg stumps. The man left three weeks later already outfitted with basic artificial arms which he demonstrated admirable alacrity in using. It was as if he had always used hooks instead of natural hands. Like Jennings, he was enamoured of being severely disabled and found his minimal dexterity to be highly erotic. He required assistance to remove his artificial arms and also turned to Aslak for the favour.

 

Jennings was whisked off to an unknown destination with the ceo one morning. The director had been given precise instructions and insisted he understood the ceo’s requirements. They were driven in a limousine to an industrial site in San Bernadino county in sweltering weather. Jennings sat limbless facing the ceo in the back of the limo, his prostheses out of sight in the trunk. This was the first occasion when the ceo spoke of the figure which Jennings was to adopt. His character was assumed to be a tripod figure with tremendously long peg limbs making him two metres tall, towering over the handsome invalids he created. Naturally enough, he would not be allowed to use peg legs or peg arms which would make him so tall, but there were special FX and he was about to be fitted with a series of prosthetic equipment which allowed him to appear gigantic on screen. It sounded fantastic to Jennings but was based on parallax and forced perspective, old film techniques familiar for over a century. But they demanded specialist prosthetics. Jennings was here to be fitted with them. The chauffeur replaced Jennings’ peg leg and then his hollow crutch arms and stood by to assist the unlikely figure if he should topple. He did not. The ceo held the doors open and the handsome bearded figure with his tripod limbs swung himself into the premises. He was introduced to the artisans who would make him the prosthetics which the ceo required him to use and was left to their devices while the ceo attended to other business. Nothing seemed to faze the prosthetics team. They had worked with hundreds of amputee actors before and although it was unusual to confront an amputee with such a dearth of stump, there was no doubt that the producer’s wishes would be accommodated. Jennings was to be fitted with such bulky and foreshortened pegs that after cinematic imaging, he would appear to be two metres tall on the world’s most convoluted and imposing peg leg. Nothing similar would ever have been seen and instead of wielding an oversized iron hook, of which Jennings already owned a pair, his arms would remain naked to reveal their uttermost disability except when the mad professor lurched from his surgical laboratory to his personal quarters. His figure was the height of limblessness at the most extreme limit of disability and yet he was expected to use his tripod gait to demonstrate that ultra‑amputation held its own fascinating capabilities.

 

The best moment of the day came when Jennings heard that he could keep the grotesquely proportioned peg leg for himself. The peg arms were of no use to anybody and would shortly be recycled for reprinting. He returned home in the limo, assisted this time by the ceo who was delighted to touch his new star’s truncated limbs in person for the first time. Jennings saw the expression of longing on his face and understood why the man was so infatuated with amputation. It was the one thing he wanted for himself but was unable, for whatever reason, to achieve. It would be a futile, wasted life without personally experiencing a short leg stump or a set of bilateral hooks.

 

The production continued scene by scene on schedule and the cast enamoured themselves of each other, most of them being naturally gay and the last one persuaded by opportunity. They discussed the desire to lose their limbs in favour of prostheses as a natural progression from normality to something special and unusual. Jennings revealed his origins as a promising Olympic athlete before circumstance and opportunity helped him understand where his genuine interests lay. He was more than satisfied to rely on hooks whenever he was satisfied to be legless but when he wished to be mobile, he loved converting the stumps of his handless arms into crutches. It was as crippling as his lack of limbs could allow and he relished the sensations. John Swift echoed his intense pleasure in possessing brief stumps, half his upper arms, and his pleasure at finally requiring complicated artificial arms. He felt himself to be complete with a pair of inert black carbon arms gripping his shoulders. It was gratifying to use such basic equipment by shrugging or leaning from side to side with no sensual input. All dexterity with the hooks was now repetitive shrugging and jerking. Knowing that he was destined to use his body in such an unnatural way to control his hooks for the most basic of tasks was utterly perfect, the complete fulfilment of a man who needed to be dependent on four artificial limbs. His listeners nodded their understanding, their prostheses and assistive devices lined up behind the bench on which they sat. Jennings looked at the freshly healed arm stumps and compared them with his own furry below elbow versions. There was no apparent advantage to possessing longer arm stumps, especially since the pair of artificial arms John Swift had been fitted with looked more imposing and mechanically demanding than his own meagre forearm sockets.

 

The production continued in a controlled chaos. All the actors except Jennings gave credible performances of the horror experienced by victims of the evil professor who could apparently only reach climax with limbless men. There was much gnashing of teeth and flailing of stump. Jennings’ tripod professor dominated every scene in which he appeared despite the alien leather mask hiding his features. Jennings used his limblessness to superb effect and stole the limelight in nude scenes. His pelt was as fascinating as his stumps.

 

Six weeks later, the cast met again for another eight days of studio work. The new production was as unlikely as the first and concentrated on the production of impractical and fantastical artificial limbs for a series of handsome young male amputees. Each and every stump was photographed in admirable detail before being concealed by the prostheses. Once again, Jennings felt inferior because of his dubious arm stumps compared with his colleagues like John Swift who sported far more attractive above‑elbow stumps.

 

After completing the shoot for the fourth production, Jennings mentioned his desire to transform into a double above‑elbow amputee in order to use a full pair of artificial arms. Joe was interested only as far as tolerating Jennings’ absence but the ceo showed far more concern. It might be possible to envisage storylines where a man begged for shorter stumps but it sounded so unlikely that any scriptwriter would be hard‑pressed to think of a motive. The ceo was sympathetic and requested some thinking time. Jennings’ future roles needed to be vetted in case the new amputations caused continuation errors. Ten days later, Jennings was informed that he had been booked for surgery on completion of the seventh production. There would then be a four month hiatus between productions, during which time he was to become proficient in using a full set of artificial arms and standard steel hooks. He should also adapt to walking with two new pairs of peg arms to match his short peg leg and long artificial leg. All expenses would be borne by the studio, on condition that the ceo had the first option on the design of the replacement limbs and devices.

 

A year passed before the seventh production was in the bag. All the actors had become intimately familiar with each other’s bodies and sexual peccadillos. They knew which of them preferred to be caressed by stumps and which by natural limbs or by prostheses. Jennings and John Swift formed such a close bond that the other actors preferred not to press either them for intimate contact. Jennings was envious of Swift’s perfect configuration—the correctly shortened leg stumps, the correctly truncated arms. They were both superb specimens of thirty year old male beauty at its most virile. They masturbated each other with whatever limb remnants they possessed. Swift was particularly fond of Jennings’ long leg stump and Jennings loved being explored by Swift’s short arm stumps. Soon their arm stumps would match and Swift could teach Jennings the secrets of using artificial elbows.

 

The amputations were disastrous. The surgeon delegated the procedure to a promising young and skilful Indian doctor who specialised in elective and voluntary amputations for wannabes and other stump lovers. The instructions on Jennings’ chart clearly stated his arms were to be amputated five centimetres above the elbow. Somehow the surgeon was allowed to proceed with amputating five centimetres below the shoulder. Instead of having long above‑elbow stumps like his idol John Swift, Jennings had rounded nubs at his shoulders which would never fully succeed in controlling the weight of his future prostheses. His reach would be pitiful, although many of his future lovers would find his enforced proximity arousing whenever he was directed to manipulate genitals with the stunning fur‑covered protrusions at his shoulders.

 

Jennings grieved for the experiences he had lost. He would never know the satisfaction of mastering a pair of demanding prostheses which, despite the challenge they presented, were comparatively accommodating. Instead, Jennings’ prosthetic arms had rigid shoulders and the forearms were locked at ninety degrees for most of the time he wore them. He could manipulate the hooks well enough to feed himself or raise a glass to his mouth. His hooks could not reach his penis. He could masturbate only by gyrating his hips against a rough textile surface with his leg stump.

 

Worst of all, he was incapable of using his peg arms. Once again, he was condemned to a wheelchair, operated with miniature toggle switches by his arm stumps at shoulder height. Joe lost interest in his companion. He had enjoyed living with a man who had virile powerful stumps instead of limbs and loved watching the struggles with prostheses. Now that Jennings had lost his stumps, he was a mere torso with one leg stump. He no longer looked erotic or masculine in Joe’s eyes. Joe had learned of the relationship between Jennings and John Swift. He understood the reasons for it well enough. Although their original relationship continued in its own way, there was little love involved. It was merely practical for both men to continue sharing the same apartment.

 

The ceo reacted with frugal pragmatism to his star performer’s disability. A remote‑controlled electric trolley was quickly concocted by the carpenters and a lightweight set of arms created from a block of styrofoam. Jennings’ magnificent flowing black beard was trimmed by two thirds its length in order to fit under the alien mask. Much was made of the sole remaining leg stump which was all Jennings had left to assert his dominance over his amputee creations. Not surprisingly, the pretence lost any remaining credibility.

 

John Swift had a suggestion for Jennings. It was time for them to admit their love and respect for each other and their mutilations. John Swift had watched his lover lose his joie de vivre since losing his arm stumps and knew that Jennings was disappointed at not being able to benefit from his peg leg. Quite simply, Swift proposed marriage if Jennings agreed to permanently adopt demanding artificial arms and actually wear them every day, and find a prosthetist with the skill and patience to create a pair of reticulating stubbies which would compensate for Jenning’s empty left hip and allow him to walk again on some kind of peg. He was almost asking the impossible but saw his lover’s eyes light up with pleasure at the prospect of once again being a user of ultra demanding prosthetic limbs, this time in the company of the man he had admired for longer than he had Joe. Swift’s forearm stumps and artificial legs were adequate for him to function perfectly well in daily life. He wore his own hooks only rarely. He envisaged them after marriage as one partner sporting artificial arms—Jennings—and the other artificial legs. He could not envision a set of stubbies which would allow Jennings to become independently mobile.

 

A year passed without further film work. The ceo assured all his amputee stars that there would be work in future and requested that they should not jeopardise themselves by working for a competitor in the meantime. Jennings gently explained to Joe that the source of their diminished happiness was Jennings’ insurmountable disability and that it would be better for them both if he left their tryst. John Swift helped him with the removals and pushed limbless Jennings’ wheelchair from Joe’s apartment to his own dressed in only shorts and trainers. The sight of one quadruple amputee assisting another caused traffic to back up and after a while, they were surrounded by delighted admirers and wannabes offering help. No‑one realised that the man seated with the solitary leg stump was the mad professor whose compunction for amputations had caused many of them to lose copious amounts of precum and ejaculate. Jennings used his furry nubs to direct John Swift, who in fact knew the route to his own apartment. It was an amusing day.

 

Jennings kept to his part of the bargain and made a concerted effort to find a prosthetist who could provide him with a pair of working artificial arms and hooks despite the dearth of stumpage. Swift himself knew from experience that the closer the fit, the better the utility. Swift showed Jennings a few films from his private collection of training films from rehabilitation hospitals, shot during and shortly after the many wars to demonstrate the physical abilities available to limbless veterans with the latest generation of plastic sockets and steel hooks. One film in particular had caught Swift’s attention and the two lovers studied it and the handsome armless veteran with considerable interest. He was fitted with a pair of arms and was later depicted handling sheafs of paper in an office environment. The point of the exercise was to prove to Jennings that even his minimal nubs would be able to control a pair of arms if he set his mind to it.

 

Four months later, after many fittings and valuable experimentation, Jennings was fitted with a superbly finished pair of artificial arms. The sockets were covered with mahogany‑coloured leather, every exposed metal component was chrome‑plated and the hooks were adjusted to be as responsive as possible to his shoulder movement. For the first time since losing his stumps, Jennings felt that he would be able to recover the dexterity he had enjoyed with his forearm stumps and hooks. Swift was proud of his determination and two weeks later they married in a private ceremony with a few amputee colleagues. Joe was invited but was not present. Instead of placing rings on each other’s hooks, they hung necklaces holding wedding rings around each other’s necks. Jenning’s jewellery immediately disappeared into his fur.

 

A second prosthetist, a specialist who had learned his trade from a man who had created prostheses for victims of thalidomide, took Jennings on as a patient and declared that it would be quite possible for Jennings to become independently mobile again on a pair of stubbies but probably not full‑length artificial legs, although nothing was impossible. He described a pair of thigh length prosthetic legs much like a solid pair of shorts. They would be held on by some kind of belt or whatever Jennings found comfortable. The legs were attached to the frame with a mechanism which forced the prosthetic leg to swing forward when weight on it was released. The left leg would be manufactured to weigh as much as the right which contained Jennings’ stump. By alternating his centre of balance from one side to the other, the stubby legs would automatically move forward a few centimetres allowing him to walk slowly but surely once again. An additional setting would allow both stubbies to rest at ninety degrees while seated, in a wheelchair, for example. John Swift and Jennings made a joint decision that a pair of tapered stubbies of thigh length would be more than welcome as an addition to Jennings’ new collection of demanding prostheses.

 

Jennings determination and success at relearning to walk had its effect on Swift. It was inevitable. Being clad completely in mahogany leather with his magnificent beard competing for attention, Jennings presented the ultimate pinnacle of adaptation to a new life reliant on prosthetic limbs. His arms were light, tight and supremely responsive. Jennings learned to lean and tilt his body in order to operate his elbows and to shrug and dip to control his hooks. He was poetry in motion but all arm function had to cease when he walked. He had learned to allow the reciprocating mechanism to do its job although there was still stump inside one of the stubbies. He rocked from side to side with confidence, allowing each stubby in turn to step forward. This motion was what enticed Swift. He longed to emulate the motion. He already had one above‑knee stump. He needed to have his below‑knee stump amputated to match. Perhaps he could have a word with the ceo when and if production ever resumed. Surely a role could be found for a bilateral hook user on stubbies? A second one?

 

The ceo resumed contact with his amputees. He was especially solicitous of Jennings and Swift, not only congratulating them on their marriage and taking a generous share of the responsibility for bringing them together in the first place, but also because both men had undergone additional amputations in order to fit their roles better. Until the unfortunate excess with the upper arms in Jennings’ case. Now the ceo was, in his own words, enchanted to see Jennings rocking his body from side to side in order to operate his impressively long stubbies, artificial arms at ninety degrees with the dual hooks pointing forward. Jennings looked completely prosthetic. Only his glorious beard and friendly eyes hinted at the presence of a great actor. Swift was determined not to pass up an opportunity and when the ceo’s attention seemed to wane, he announced that he would greatly appreciate a role as a quadrilateral amputee with identical bilateral stumps. He wanted to be symmetrical. He was desirous of losing his longer leg stump in order to emulate his husband. He wanted to walk on identical long tapering conical stubbies, which he found the height of masculine beauty and eroticism. Already impressed by seeing Jennings, the ceo announced that nothing would give him more pleasure than to provide Swift with his desired symmetry and immediately delved into calling in favours and other shady arrangements with cooperative surgical staff.

 

The new production was ground‑breaking, the ceo explained. Never before had such a collection of handsome virile amputees joined forces to create such a stupendous blockbuster. Gradually, the exaggerations ran out and he described a post‑operative rehabilitation establishment for recovering amputees. Its purpose was to reassure fresh amputees that their bodies were still handsome and desirable and in order to reinforce the message, most of the therapy involved sexual relationships with other amputees. They would learn to use their stumps and nubs in place of warm hands and fingertips. They would learn to appreciate the presence of artificial limbs during coitus and how to persuade a reluctant partner to accept the touch of cool hard carbon fibre instead of warm flesh. After his presentation, he called Swift to the podium and explained that he wanted Swift to be bilateral with short leg stumps. That was the deal. Swift could be symmetrical at the cost of ease of using stubbies. He would still use them but they would present a challenge. The ceo was already imagining a production featuring only legless men on stubbies and he wanted all of them to be maximally crippled. Swift considered the offer for ten seconds, agreed and by the end of the afternoon, had arrived in a make‑shift clinic where an enthusiastic novice surgeon was more than happy to receive an unexpected order from one of his underground contacts. It was unusual to amputate bilateral stumps but the patient apparently wished to use short stubbies and the resulting meagre stumps would eventually prove to be adequate.

 

Swift’s absence would have been a daunting prospect for Jennings had he not been encouraged to learn to use his prostheses to their utmost. There was little requiring delicacy or dexterity which Jennings could manage independently but he could open groceries and make himself a simple meal. His naked leg stump sufficed for mobility at home, aided by his bilateral hooks for balance. He no longer regretted the short nubs at his shoulders. They were useful for sexual manipulation of his husband’s genitals, generating a rhythmic sensation below the scrotum which eventually resulted in orgasm. But the two men had trialled and perfected making love while wearing their artificial limbs. The sounds produced by stubbies clashing against artificial legs or the unavoidable contact of hollow carbon arms and hooks were new aspects of their relationship and for both men, who had deliberately shed their natural limbs for insensate replacements, the unnatural contact was more exciting than that of flesh. The framework of Jennings’ stubbies encased his genitals and Swift loved to knock against it with his long prosthetic leg, not only because of the resultant percussion but because the vibration transferred to his husband’s penis.

 

Soon they would both make love wearing identical stubbies, although Jennings’ genitals would still be hidden. Swift was eager to discover the sensations which came with a pair of stumps which terminated a handsbreadth below his scrotum.

 

The script was delivered by courier to all the amputees. It was a futile demonstration of decadence. There was no hurry and the new script was not important. The premise of the production spoke for itself. Shell‑shocked and dubious young amputees would be introduced to each other for psychological support and within half a minute would be exploring the erotic potential of their residual limbs, their stumps and their nubs by engaging in urgent displays of large erections seeking some kind of flesh or orifice to chafe against. A pair of thigh stumps proved again and again its superiority, outdone only by the less exotic combination of two forearm stumps, already phallic in themselves, gently manipulating an erection in tandem.

 

The ceo announced a delay in the production. In reality, he was waiting for Swift’s new short stumps to be sturdy enough to be fitted with the long tapering stubbies which Jennings used. After four months, everything was ready. The amputees with arm stumps were partnered with each other, and those with short leg stumps or mere nubs at their pelvis were introduced to each other. Unavoidably, many of the amputees were missing more than two limbs and various camera angles were programmed in order to take advantage of additional tantalising movement by stumps unrelated to the main action. Jennings and Swift were permitted to demonstrate their long‑practised method of love‑making, knocking their complete sets of bilateral prostheses against each other in a flurry of urgent eroticism. Jennings’ wild gyrations with unwieldy prostheses in an effort to engage his concealed penis with anything to relieve his need were among the high points of the end production and he received many envious compliments on his energetic efforts despite his almost complete limblessness. He shrugged his shoulders with a grin hidden in his beard, causing his hooks to open. He felt he had reached his personal nirvana. No further adaptations could improve his current desperate degree of disability. He was on the ultimate farthest limit of prosthetic use, already crippled by his mechanical stubbies. He was completely reliant on mechanical limbs and frequently peacefully pondered their brevity and the sensations of his absent limbs. Of all his prostheses, only his stubbies did not generate feelings of natural limbs, possibly because of the unnatural movement required to walk in them.

 

Swift was excited to awaken after his amputations to discover his short stumps and immediately ejaculated. This was the first occasion he had experienced the simultaneous reduction of more than one limb and he too concentrated on trying to comprehend the fact that his legs were now as long as his fist was wide. He would have extreme difficulty in controlling stubbies and envisaged a pair of peg arms like his husband had used years ago. The potential for different prosthetic devices was exciting and tantalising. He and his husband would explore them together but the main thing, the whole point of the entire exercise, was that they should always be a matching couple on identical stubbies. Holding hooks, they would stumble their way forward together.

 

The ceo cast both Jennings and Swift to feature prominently in his new production. Much careful camerawork was required to convey the impression that Jennings used his cantankerous prostheses as if they were his natural arms. His hooks seemed to possess their own delicate touch and appeared to succeed at every task at the first attempt. Jennings was requested to caress his long conical stubbies with his hooks and to express pleasure while doing so. His more advanced treatment for new amputees, anal penetration, was conducted both while the two men wore their entire complement of artificial limbs and also butt naked when the roles were temporarily reversed when the ‘patient’, Swift, was required to administer masturbatory therapy to his armless lover with his forearm stumps. Their leg stumps were all used to chafe against their erect penises and the cinematic treatment depicted an unusual technique apparently the equal of a pair of warm hands or a pair of steel hooks.

 

The amputee actors gained a certain degree of notoriety among the niche audience who had seen their displays of sexual shenanigans. Stills of the most delectable scenes circulated for a while until the ceo learned of them and demanded their removal. The men kept in close contact for a year or two but inevitably drifted apart as life intervened. Jennings and Swift continued their love affair, complementing each other as far as possible to compensate for missing limbs. They both accumulated an impressive selection of artificial limbs and associated accessories, some of them practical alternatives, others more impractical fantasies. Jennings unexpected favourite pair of arms were an anniversary gift—a pair of cosmetic arms attached to a yoke across Jennings’ shoulders. They were rigid from shoulder to fingertips but bent in a natural way at the elbows and moulded from high gloss white acrylic. The hands were prime examples of beautifully proportioned male hands and Jennings wore the contraption whenever the couple were invited to a public event where the main topic would be voluntary amputation and its prospects in the realms of cinema, prosthetics and human relations, namely sexuality. Dressed in identical black velvet suits, the couple were often compared to the scandalous secret relationships during the golden age of Hollywood. Jennings, always the pinnacle of calm with his inexpressive hands, explained how he had overcome disappointment with his stumps to rally again, supported by his lover, who stood beside him with a hook around his shoulder. Their black suit shorts revealed their identical conical peg legs and after several minutes of enthusiastic endorsement for elective amputations, they were allowed to rock their way to their limousine and home. Public events never failed to heighten their enthusiasm for each others’ stumps and as so often before, both men used the remnants of once handsome limbs to masturbate each other until they fell asleep in a pool of cum.

 

THE MAN WHO FELL FROM GRACE WITH HIS BODY

Wednesday, 16 April 2025

RECYCLING

 

RECYCLING

A horrifying tale of amputation, concocted by strzeka (04/25)

 

Herbert Carr was oddly named for a child born in the millennium year but the older he became, the better he grew into the character it conjured in people’s imaginations. His mother had insisted her child be called after her great grandfather who had been a submariner in the Great War and permanently deafened as a result. He had been tall with a muscular build, wiry hair, a thick full beard with a permanent five o’clock shadow, and despite his war disability, there was a twinkle in his eye and his easy smile charmed the ladies. He married a clever young woman whose fine features carried down the generations.

 

Herbie promised to take after the old man who had died a quarter of a century earlier. He had the same kind of robust build even as a child and the same hair with a prominent whorl at the back of his head which always caused his hair to stick up. His parents instilled a love of books in their son, always reading him a story before bedtime, letting Herbie point at the illustrations and interrupt as much as he wanted to ask questions and explain what he imagined. He was intelligent and inquisitive, behaved himself at school and was praised by his teachers. He was popular without being thought a swot. He loved playing football, not so much because of the sport itself but because it was an opportunity to spend time with his friends, part of a team. He enjoyed feeling that he belonged, perhaps due to the inevitable loneliness many children without siblings fall victim to.

 

In a way, Herb had his love for the beautiful game to thank for possibly saving his life. One brilliantly sunny Saturday afternoon in mid‑May when it was still fairly cool and completely windless, Herb’s school team was playing a friendly against a neighbouring school. Approaching halftime, it was still nil-nil and the players from both teams were becoming more boisterous in their attempts to score in the next few minutes. Herb had momentary control of the ball and spun around to aim it towards a better positioned team member. One of his opponents, a neighbour whom Herb knew very well, tackled at too great a speed and Herb toppled sideways, dislocating his right knee. The pain was instantaneous and agonising and the game stopped for twenty minutes until an ambulance carried Herb off, still writhing in pain, doing his best not to embarrass himself in front of so many peers.

 

The medics had already decided that Herb’s leg was not fractured but he was driven around to the x‑ray section and left in the capable hands of the staff who shortly had the boy naked. Herb’s stubble, bald spot and hair‑covered body and limbs caused temporary confusion when Herb stated his date of birth. He was sixteen and already hirsute enough to make an adult envious. After a torturous two hour wait, Herb’s knee was x‑rayed and the results pored over by a couple of doctors.

            – Well, this is clear enough. Except here.

The doctor pointed at the lower reaches of Herb’s thighbone.

            – That’s nothing to do with us. Let’s get his knee fixed.

            – I know but I think we should have another shot of his thigh. I want to know what that shadow is.

            – OK. I’ll get him scheduled for another round.

 

So it was that six hours later, more senior doctors were examining the second series of x‑rays and their AI‑generated diagnosis. All were in agreement that the patient was in the earliest stages of bone cancer. The prognosis was not pleasant. There would either be several years of chemical and radiological treatment, hardly suitable for a schoolboy’s development, or the amputation of the affected limb. The latter was quicker to perform, quicker to recover from and most importantly, it would cost the health service a tiny percentage of the cost of oncological radiotherapy. The latest government health minister had made it abundantly clear that money was to be saved in every feasible contingency. The pronouncement was gibberish but its meaning was clear. The surgeons would persuade the unfortunate footballing fan that his best interests were served by the imminent amputation of his leg. Two surgeons argued for retaining at least some length of stump but the more senior doctors had been threatened enough by the loss of their pensions on dismissal for disobedience that Herb’s leg was history before the results of his x‑rays were even explained to him. A disarticulation was decreed and theatre time was reserved for the following day at nine. With luck, the procedure would be over in time for an early lunch. Herbert’s parents were alerted and summoned to sign the release for permission to amputate and the distraught parents were prescribed tranquillisers which they might purchase from any apothecary.

 

Herb’s leg was removed the following morning. The boy was fit and healthy to all intents and purposes and every indication during the procedure spoke of his healthy lungs and sturdy heart. There were no detectable cancerous cells in his bloodstream. Herb would be screened at three and later six monthly intervals over the next five years. He would lead a one‑legged man’s life on crutches. It was difficult to fit a practical prosthesis to the pelvic stump of a disarticulate amputee and those men to whom it was completed successfully often rejected the resultant gait and inconvenience, returning to the reliability of long crutches and elegance of an empty trouser leg tucked into their belt line.

 

Herbert was nonplussed by the change which had altered the progression of his life. In the mid‑teens, things seemed fairly straightforward, if not easy. School, college, exams, university, employment. Becoming disabled before life had even really started was more distressing for his parents and older relatives than for Herbie himself. He was visited and supported by his team mates and schoolfriends, many of whom were curious about the loss of a fine limb to cancer and what the resulting stump actually looked like. They were disappointed not to see it during visiting hours.

 

Medical staff agreed that a short course of rehabilitation was enough for the boy who showed aptitude in manipulating his long wooden crutches and had assured his caretakers that he understood how to take care of the residual limb. There was not really any stump to speak of. Herb liked the way a trouser leg folded into his waist looked like it might contain half a leg and favoured that while he was still under hospital care. He wanted to get out of rehab and home as soon as possible because he wanted to practise walking with only one crutch. The only time he had tried it in rehab, he had been sternly reprimanded by his ‘coach’ and warned not to try running before he could walk. They grinned at the corny gag and Herbie did not attempt the single crutch trick again.

 

He was discharged and collected by his father, who was unnervingly similar to his son in appearance. They could be brothers. Carr Senior was completely bald and sported a short beard. His neck and throat were covered in a dark blend of hair and whiskers and more hair curled out between the threads of his T‑shirt. Herbie knew he would also be balding at twenty and viewed his increasing pelt with wry satisfaction. Most of all, he disliked shaving. His neck was also sprouting ever more whiskers. It was difficult to keep his neck looking clean and tidy. He had been allowed to grow his beard for the weeks he had spent recovering in hospital and it was impressive for a sixteen year old, still sleek and shiny. His face was too immature to carry off masculine stubble as yet. The older Carr carried Herbie’s meagre possessions to his white van and held the door while the boy climbed carefully up into the passenger seat. The crutches had space on the floor of the cab.

 

            – We had a letter come the other day from the school.

            – Oh? What was that about?

            – It was about whether they’ll let you carry on with your mates in the new school year or whether you’ll have to repeat the year ’cos you missed so much school.

            – Well, I haven’t missed all that much because of the summer holidays and all that.

            – That’s what the letter said. They reckon you can carry on as would be the case if it hadn’t been for… you know.

            – My amputation.

            – Yeah, your amputation. But if you’re struggling, you’ll have to repeat last year, see?

            – Oh. I don’t wanna do that.

            – No. Just so’s you know, Herb. As far as school’s concerned, everything is the same for the time being. Now what are we going to do at home?

            – How do you mean?

            – Well, about your room being upstairs and all that.

            – What about it? Dad, I’ve just lost my leg, not my brain. I can hop upstairs and I have to go upstairs for a pee, don’t I?

            – Yeah, that’s what I was trying to tell your mother. She was worried, still is I guess, about you on the stairs.

            – I’ll be alright.

            – I know you will, son. Be patient with your mum, Herbie. She’s right to worry about you so don’t let it bother you. But I have to ask—are you alright, mate? About what’s happened, I mean?

            – About losing my leg, you mean? It’s alright. They found cancer, didn’t they? Right at the early stage. So it would have had to come off sooner or later, right? Better they caught it this way, I reckon.

            – It doesn’t hurt you, does it, son? Your stump, I mean?

            – I don’t have a stump, dad. It’s just smooth skin now.

Carr glanced down at the empty space disguised by the way Herb wore his jeans, trying to imagine what it looked like without a stump. He returned his senses to following traffic and the rest of the journey home was completed in silence.

 

It fell to Herbie to keep the household together. His parents tried to give the appearance that everything was as it had always been. That their gorgeous boy who took after his father was safe and sound and on the mend from the dreadful cancer which had cost the boy his leg. They tried to eliminate the word ‘leg’ from their vocabulary. In the weeks of summer holiday remaining to Herbie and his classmates, while his parents fretted over how to question him about his ‘thing’, Herb and his mates were kicking a ball around in the scrubland which the local council called a park. All of his teammates had seen Herbie’s amazing leglessness in person when they were naked for showers, and how Herbie’s amazing hairiness was already growing over the scar. Soon it would be as if Herbie had never had a leg there at all. It was amazing. And they had all tried out his crutches, holding one leg up, being defeated by poor balance and general lack of control. Herbie had superb control, thanks to his sportiness. He enjoyed being the centre of attention. His missing leg was an excellent excuse for the entire team not only to see what a stump looked like—there was none—and to admire Herbie’s generous cock and balls which looked like they might take over the space previously occupied by a thigh.

 

Carr Senior knew a man who knew someone who could get a good deal on electric scooters. Decent ones, not the cheap rubbish. The seller was sympathetic after learning about the recipient’s rotten luck and a brand‑new electric Vespa knock‑off was delivered to the Carr house in return for a refurbished electric kitchen stove in the last week of August. He and his dad spent the next twenty‑four hours kitting out the bike so Herb’s crutch fit on it securely, that the L plates were just so. Everything else could wait, including Herb’s provisional driving licence. His dad paid for the insurance and suddenly, quite unexpectedly, the one‑legged cripple was more mobile than most of his schoolmates.

 

His return to school was met with consternation from the teachers who could clearly see some commotion in the playground through the overlooking staff room windows. After peering for a couple of minutes, the reason became clear. Herbert Carr had returned leaning on crutches and the lad was missing a leg! And he had arrived on a brilliant silver scooter. If anyone else had turned up on one, they would have been relentlessly teased about it but for Herb it was different. Anyone could see why he might need his own transport. By the end of the first day, all the staff and most of the older kids knew that Herbie had lost his leg to cancer. There was another crowd of curious admirers outside the bike shed to ease his scooter through at the end of the day. Most of his schoolmates had never seen an amputee before and a few were overly excited by the idea of having only one leg. For them, the sixteen year old Herbert Carr became an imaginary ideal who always came to mind whenever they fantasised about losing a limb.

 

The next few years passed for Herbie as they might have, had he had his full complement of limbs. He sat for his exams, did well at the subjects he was interested in and less well in the others. His classmates thought nothing of their one‑legged mate with the single crutch. They often went out for a pint after school on Friday, led by the balding, heavily stubbled cripple who always got the pints in without anyone checking their IDs. Herb looked like he was twenty‑five or thirty. Who could tell? They had never been that old. Herb worked for his father, officially, with a proper taxed wage. He learned everything there was to know about repairing white goods and how to get a deal on almost anything portable, useful and convertible. Convertible meant that it could be used for barter. A gas‑powered barbecue. A low‑powered motorcycle. An electronic cash register. That sort of thing. Herb graduated from his electric scooter, which he rode for six years until the battery died, to a six‑fifty Kawasaki to which he added quadruple headlights, a hundred and twenty decibel horn and a fitting behind the seat to hold his crutch upright, high in the air. He made it a matter of honour never to ride his bike without his hundred percent leather outfit and his chrome helmet. In the name of traffic safety, Herb’s leather motorcycle trousers had lost the right leg and the gap was stitched closed. The young biker with his single crutch looked striking wherever he went. His stride was even and he was aware of how his crutch might inconvenience others. He wielded it carefully in crowds but that was not enough to prevent him from knocking against someone while crossing a busy road. Herb was able to catch his balance, but his inadvertent assailant tripped and fell in an embarrassing exhibition of helplessness.

 

Several people stopped to help. People lifted the lanky young man with sunglasses and a white cane while others tended to the cripple who had caused the mishap. Fortunately  no‑one was injured and only their dignity was battered. Before the lights could change, the two disabled young men were left propping themselves up by their returning wits and the traffic lights pole.

            – I’m terribly sorry. I didn’t see your crutch. I, well, I have no way of knowing. It was just an accident.

            – Don’t worry about it, mate. I understand completely. I did see you coming but I find it difficult to dodge out of the way quickly, having only one leg.

            – Oh! I hadn’t realised. I did rather suspect that it was a crutch I had tripped on. They’re rather more solid than walking sticks which is what I usually get tangled up in.

            – Does it happen to you often?

            – No, no. Not really. I exaggerate.

Herb liked the sound of the blind man. His voice was mellow and he had a nice accent, familiar but somehow distinguished. He was well‑dressed, fashionable in an American preppy sort of way. His hair was neat and his sideburns extended to mid‑ear.

            – Look, are you in a hurry to get somewhere? I feel bad about tripping you up and I’d like to make it up to you somehow. Are you hungry? There’s a hamburger place right opposite. Or we could go for a pint, if you like.

The blind man was worldly enough to have learned not to refuse the kindness of strangers.

            – That would be nice. I’m not in a mad rush and I’d love a drink.

            – Great! There’s a pub on the next corner. Just follow me. Do you want to hold onto my shoulder or something?

            – Thanks but no. I can hear your footsteps so I’ll follow those.

            – Ah! That’s where the problem starts.

Herb laughed and made sure his drinking partner was facing the right way.

            – Come on. Let’s get out of these peoples’ way.

 

The blind man sensed the direction his new companion had taken and distinguished the unusual cadence of a single boot striking the pavement. The man sounded fairly young. How might he have lost a leg at that age? Probably either a road accident or something horrible like cancer. Herb kept an eye on his companion and described the entrance to the corner pub.

            – There are two steps up to the door and the steps are sort of curved around the corner.

            – Oh. OK, I get you.

The ball at the tip of the blind man’s cane delineated the ancient architecture and the blind man followed Herb into the warm beery fug of a London local.

            – Let’s sit near the window. There’s an empty chair two steps ahead on your left.

A man sitting at the adjacent table looked up when Herb spoke, checked out the situation and quickly withdrew his stretched out legs. Herb reached down and arranged his own seat so that he could lower himself onto it with room for his crutch and inwardly congratulated himself for guiding the blind man safely to a table. The pub was busy but a bartender had noticed the arrival of the odd pair and reasoned that they might appreciate some help ordering. He squeezed out from behind the bar and asked what the two invalids might like to drink.

            – Two lagers, please.

 

The blind man introduced himself first.

            – I don’t know your name. I’m Duke Lane and I’m a translator.

            – Really? I thought AI did that these days?

            – It does, for the most part. It’s OK for translating product manuals or medicine instructions and that sort of thing but when it comes to books or tv series, you still need a human to get it right.

            – Well, that’s good to know. My name’s Herbert Carr but people call me Herbie. I work in my dad’s recycling business. Ha! Back in the olden days, they used to call us rag and bone men. Nowadays they come to us with their broken bits and pieces to see if we can fix ’em. And most often, we can.

            – It’s all part of this new economy, isn’t it?

            – I suppose it is. People have to use their wits these days to earn a wage. I suppose we’re lucky in that sense. Ah! Here’s our beer. Thanks, mate.

 

            – Well, your very good health. Cheers. Thanks for inviting me along, Herb. May I call you Herb? I don’t get called on very often these days.

            – You mean because of your blindness?

            – Yeah, I suppose so. But it’s so pleasant to have someone to chat to over a beer. To have other people around and hear the sound of other people’s voices.

            – I guess that’s important to you, isn’t it? It’s the way you see the world.

            – It is. But tell me more about your business. It sounds interesting how the old recycling business has changed over the years. I’m guessing you have to be jacks‑of‑all‑trades.

            – How do you mean?

            – You have to know how to repair a whole variety of household stuff which might otherwise end up in landfill.

            – Oh, sure. Most stuff is fairly easy to diagnose. I don’t think I could repair everything in a CD player but I know what to do if the door is just stuck. That sort of thing.

            – That’s just the sort of thing that people used to buy a new machine for, isn’t it?

            – True but people don’t have the cash these days to buy new stuff every time the old things get scratched up.

 

As part of the process of demonstrating how a blind man uses a smart phone, they exchanged phone numbers and so began an unusual mutual friendship between two young disabled men.

 

So it appeared. Duke Lane was not genuinely blind, however. He wore opaque contact lenses which deprived him of sight, sunglasses with glassy black lenses and carried a white cane to negotiate his route. But apart from mild myopia, there was nothing wrong with his eyes. He wanted to live the life of a sightless man and adopted the lifestyle when he arrived in the locality after leaving university. He had rented his current apartment as visually impaired tenant. When he removed his contacts, he placed a blindfold over his eyes.

 

He had discovered his predilection during bondage games with a partner. His face and jaw had been wrapped tightly in duct tape and he found the lack of sight oddly calming. He was able to concentrate on his other senses and actually enjoyed the silence requested by his companion. He regularly blinded himself temporarily at home after that and researched mobility aids for the visually impaired. He had a variety of white canes of various length and weight. When he planned on remaining inside for any greater length of time, he could wear one of his rubber or leather hoods, none of them equipped with eyeholes. His collection also included two 3D‑printed masks which allowed him to adopt the handsome but immobile features of an android.

 

Duke texted Herb a few times a month. Herb was pleased to be asked how he was doing by someone who seemed to be genuinely interested. They met up on average once a month, usually simply for drinks after working hours in less‑frequented pubs where their disabilities were less likely to cause disruption. Such considerations should no longer have been necessary but people are not quick to change old habits.

 

One early April evening, Duke’s phone buzzed with an incoming message. Duke already knew it was from Herbie. He had fallen down some concrete steps by the river and broken his leg. He was currently being plastered from his balls to his toes and invited Duke to meet up in the near future.

 

It was an extraordinary situation to find himself in. A one‑legged man wearing a long leg cast. The medic had automatically added a rubber heel to the base of the cast and ensured it would stay put with a few extra layers of plaster bandage. Herb’s foot was an impressive size with handsome curvature from the heel to his toes. They could not be in danger of touching the floor. It was the first time Herb had worn a cast and he was fascinated by its unexpected warmth and its reassuring solidity and weight. Herb had fractured both his shin‑ and thighbones. As a result of walking with a crutch, his bone density had diminished, making him more susceptible to fractures.

            – Now you tell me!

            – It’s usually only after a mishap like yours that we discover the condition. You’ll know in future, won’t you? It’s something to bear in mind, Mr Carr.

 

Herb was offered a new pair of long wooden crutches to compensate for the extra height provided by the built‑up heel. He was instructed to keep the weight off the leg as much as possible until his next appointment in two weeks, when his leg would be x‑rayed. If all was well, he would be allowed to walk on his walking cast. Until then, he was to use a wheelchair with the cast prominently displayed in a horizontal position. The wheelchair was old and worn but comfortable. It was fairly responsive to use but he would not be doing any wheelies in it. He was delivered to his apartment by ambulance at ten minutes to midnight and was too tired to move from the wheelchair to his bed. It would not be easy and he might need some help. The only person he could think of who would definitely be free to help him during the next couple of weeks was Duke, who could work on his translations and the like anywhere. This time, Herb sent a text inviting Duke to call in the following day. There was much to talk about but Duke was not a stupid man. He would understand the situation and arrive with everything he needed for a few days’ stay.

 

He arrived by taxi and allowed the driver to assist him into Herb’s building with a small suitcase. Herb was delighted to see his new friend and relieved to know that the following few days might be less trying than otherwise might have been the case.

            – Make yourself at home, Duke. I’ll show you your bed a bit later. Do you want to unpack now?

            – I’d prefer to leave it. I know where I packed everything. I will take my laptop out of it though. Is there a table and chair where I can set it up?

            – There is. I cleared a space for you. We’ll get your machine set up and linked with my wifi in a moment but first, how about a cuppa?

            – Yes please! Show me the kitchen.

 

Duke held his cane vertically in front of him to warn of any obstacles. Herb had already made an effort to clear the floor, which had no carpeting or mats anyway. Duke felt the layout of the kitchen and learned the positions of the white goods and kitchen cabinets. He would soon be able to brew tea himself for them both.

 

Herb explained that his leg was immobile thanks to a thick long leg cast and Duke examined it, starting at the heavily bandaged foot.

            – I have to keep my weight off it for a couple of weeks until the doctors give me the say‑so. Then I’ll be able to walk on it with crutches.

            – Almost back to normal, then.

            – Sort of. I usually get by with only one crutch but of course that’s impossible now so I’ll have to use two. And as you can imagine, life is going to be a little difficult when it comes to sitting down for various purposes. That’s when I’d appreciate having someone standing by to catch me if I lose my balance.

            – I’ll do my best for you, Herb. You can rely on me. I’m glad you trust me enough to let me help. I appreciate it.

 

It took a while for Duke to relax. It was the first time either of them had visited the other’s home. Duke was not only apprehensive about being able to provide enough support for his friend, he was also feeling dubious about revealing the truth about his lack of vision. Sooner or later Herb would notice the contact lenses, and questions about his night time blindfold were imminent. He had never been in such an intimate situation before where he might need to explain. But the first night went well enough. He had a convertible camp bed in a box room with an upright wooden chair but no other furniture. To his relief, he was easily able to assist Herb out of his wheelchair onto his bed without allowing the casted leg to drop or twist dangerously. He was also relieved by Herb’s ability to function on the toilet independently and clean himself afterwards.

 

Within a week, Duke was confident moving around the apartment and was genuinely useful to his crippled friend. Even without medical permission, Herb spent more time upright, leaning on his crutches with a familiar insouciance. He was inured to pain and began to enjoy the extreme rigidity of his solitary leg and the rock and roll of his rubber‑tipped foot. The leg was not as inconvenient as he had feared. In fact, Duke’s presence was no longer strictly necessary and Herb was not looking forward to the moment when he should declare himself independent again. Herb carefully swung his heavy cast between his pristine crutches and enjoyed the sensations of his dual disabilities. The void at his left hip felt clean and reassuring. There was nothing left of his leg and occasionally Herb could still experience the excitement of a fresh amputation and a new way of being. He enjoyed being one‑legged too much to wish that he had never lost his leg and he was beginning to enjoy being additionally crippled by the long leg cast.

 

Herb was examined at the hospital and granted permission to do what he had already been doing for several days. He gratefully returned the old wheelchair for the use of someone less fortunate and swung himself back to his apartment along bright autumn afternoon streets. Duke was not looking forward to learning that his services, such as they were, would no longer be necessary and that he could return to his own lonely apartment. Herb was also considering the same conundrum and came to the conclusion that the best thing to do was simply ignore it. He would say nothing about Duke’s prospective departure unless Duke brought the subject up first.

 

Herb announced to his father that he would be returning to work on the following Monday and described his predicament. The casted leg was a semi‑permanent condition for the next few months while his bones healed. Apparently there was something wrong with them. They were not dense enough or something. His father grunted his approval and welcomed the return of his assistant. Duke listened to the conversation and drew his own conclusions. His help was no longer necessary. Herb would manage fine on his own and Duke could return to his own home, which was better suited to a sightless life.

 

He mentioned it at breakfast the following morning. Herb was leaning on a tall footstool, sitting on his empty pelvis and resting on the cast. He looked into Duke’s sightless brown eyes, the opaque contact lenses designed to mimic his natural eyes.

            – I understand, Duke. You don’t have to apologise for anything. It would be great if you could stay a bit longer but your flat is much better suited to your needs. Much more convenient for you than mine.

            – It’s true, I suppose. Still, we were a pretty good team, weren’t we? It was good to have a man around who can see. Especially when we were shopping. Which reminds me. I need to get some things before I return.

            – Duke, I just had an idea. Leave your things here with your suitcase and I’ll put them through the washer. That means we could go to the supermarket for what you need today and you won’t need to haul shopping and a suitcase.

            – Good idea. I wouldn’t be able to manage both anyway. Give me half an hour and I’ll be ready to leave.

            – Take your time, Duke. We’re in no hurry.

 

Later in the day, Herb contemplated his options. He already missed seeing Duke, quietly sitting at his desk fingering his devices to turn a foreign language into plain everyday English for subtitles or adverts, whatever it was as the case may be. Duke knew so much but never bragged about it. He was always willing to help Herb with physical things after running his hands over it all to look at what he needed help with. Many times Herb had watched Duke use the tip of his cane to locate his crutches, which he then brought to the invalided Herb. It was no different from a seeing man doing the same thing. At the back of his mind, a cynical thought struggled to be born. It would be wonderful to find a wife like Duke. Someone dedicated to helping him through life with no demands, no preconditions, no complaining. What were the chances for a one‑legged man to find a woman willing to dedicate her life to assisting him? Slim to none, he thought. He was a good‑looking bloke, he thought. Trim, no beer belly. Still had his hair and teeth. What more could a woman want? Two legs, for sure.

 

But one was enough, even though it was completely rigid. Smooth and warm. He had kept the cast clean of graffiti and grown used to the effect of the black rubber heel on the base of the cast which he had never seen. Unfortunately, said a doctor whom Herb had not met previously, the bones have not yet knitted sufficiently and therefore we will be applying a new cast this afternoon. If you would kindly wait. His leg had been casted already for seven months. Another three or four would make no difference.

 

But they did. During the extended period, the tipping point between viable injury and irreparable damage was crossed. Herb’s leg bones knitted but could bear only half the weight and impact demanded of them and the knee itself fused into a bony lump. Even without a cast, his leg could not bend at the knee. To all practical purposes it was a solid lump of bone except that it was painful to place weight on. After several weeks of futile medical experimentation, it was deemed optimal for Herb to be fitted with a weight‑bearing knee‑ankle‑foot‑orthosis, a metal leg brace which he could wear every day in place of the plaster cast but which would serve a similar function. To all intents and purposes, he would be crutching around again on two crutches with his severely damaged natural leg encased from top to bottom in a leather and steel leg brace. It looked horny and with the rigid custom boot he was issued, Herb returned to his job looking like an amputee polio victim. He begrudged the time it took to attach to his leg each morning and the time required to remove it each evening. The plaster cast had been far more convenient.

 

For some reason, the mere fact that his leg brace was removable disturbed Herbie. It was the first orthotic device he had used, a piece of apparatus designed to not to replace a limb like a prosthesis, but to take over a natural limb’s function. The purpose of Herb’s piece of kit was simply to bypass his knee, which could not tolerate compression. The brace comprised two steel struts from the top of his thigh, down past his knee to terminate and attach to a deceptively designed rigid boot. It was crafted of top quality black leather and contained Herb’s foot without allowing the sole of his foot to touch the inner surface of the boot. His foot was supported in mid‑air by a cushioned ring at the top of the brace which supported his entire leg. Any contact with the boot’s heel transferred through the steel struts to Herb’s pelvis bypassing his foot, ankle and knee. The boot was an impressive sight in itself. It was built up by seventeen centimetres to compensate for the suspended foot. The heel was reinforced by a semicircular metal cleat, a horseshoe, which emitted an emphatically metallic sound at every step. The front of the boot curved upwards, exposing yellow sole leather. Herb adopted three quarter length cargo pants with the left leg removed and the hole sewn closed. The short right trouser leg exposed the entire expanse of the conspicuously oversized boot. Herb, an experienced crutch user, confidently swung the heavy brace with each step and became inured to the attention the metallic sound of his gait attracted from strangers. He received compliments on his prowess for acclimatising himself so adeptly to his new reality from family and orthotic professionals. As his confidence grew, Herb became deliberately provocative in his way of dressing and frequently wore his brace over a pair of skinny jeans to show off the glittering chrome steel and his glossy leather boot, probably the largest footwear anyone who encountered him had ever seen.

 

And yet Herb pined for the simplicity and convenience of his long leg cast. He tried to explain his preference to Duke, who personally preferred the complicated leather and steel contraption of Herb’s leg with all its clips and leather cuffs and buckles which offered a tactile adventure to the sightless man. As Herb and Duke’s relationship matured over the years, they became more intimate with each other and revealed details about their disabilities kept secret until now. Duke fully approved of Herb’s future plans to redesign his method of mobility and Herb was first shocked by and then approving of Duke’s self‑imposed blindness. Duke was grateful to Herb for never criticising him. Duke paid little attention to his eyes or his eyesight. He had not realised that he had severe glaucoma in both eyes and his natural potential vision was deteriorating without him even noticing. Duke had lived the life of a blind man for fifteen years, always confident in the knowledge that he could stop at any time if necessary. His natural eyesight had suddenly contracted to a third of his former field of vision and he would be effectively completely blind in a dimly lit room. However, he had no idea that this was happening.

 

Herb’s leg brace needed refurbishment. He did not have a spare nor did he have a wheelchair from which his natural leg would extend uselessly. His orthotist understood the problem and for the last time, Herb’s leg was casted with a beautifully thick curved walking sole. It felt perfect, like a breath of fresh air after being imprisoned for so long. Herb made no effort to collect his leg brace. The orthotist sent several reminders that the work had been done. Herb paid the bill but left the brace uncollected in the orthotist’s store room. Three months later, he returned requesting a new thicker and heavier leg cast. However, it was not to be.

 

The old cast was removed to reveal severe discoloration around and below Herb’s locked knee. The cast had played a part in disguising the developing disease eating his healthy flesh.

            – I’m afraid to say, Mr Carr, that I’m going to pass you forward to the oncology department at St. Luke’s. I recognise those symptoms, although the disease itself is rare. You lost your leg to cancer as a boy, I believe? I suspect that amputation may be the remedy here too, assuming the worst.

 

The prosthetist was unusually forthcoming about Herb’s prospects, and after his initial surprise, Herb began to imagine himself as a man without even the vestiges of legs. The situation would call for a variety of buckets or body socket, he supposed. Or he might be strapped into a wheelchair in order not to topple from it. The oncology department was no more reassuring. There was indeed a localised cancerous growth below and in the knee. A small group of specialists debated the wisdom of allowing the patient to keep part of his thigh in contrast with a safe and sure disarticulation from the pelvis, rendering the patient utterly legless. It was decided to leave the final decision to the patient on condition that he return for evaluation every three months for the next two years. That way he could retain a stump and any recurrence of the disease could be caught in time.

 

            – So you see, Herb, it’s up to you. Would you prefer to have your right leg removed completely like your left leg or are you willing to take a chance and submit to the risk of a recurring bout with the disease but with a stump?

            – How long a stump are we talking about? If it’s just a short thing, we might as well disarticulate but if it’s going to be a hefty piece of thigh, I’d rather prefer keeping it, even though it might only be for a year or two.

            – Oh, the amputation would allow you a stump almost to your knee. To our best judgement, we are unanimous in agreeing that your knee must come off as it seems to be the worst affected. But the bone and flesh above your knee is free of any cancerous cells and with regularly check‑ups, you should be able to use the stump to control some kind of prosthetic limb.

            – Or a stubby. That would be cool!

            – Ahem. Indeed. Well, if you will sign these forms of consent, I’ll get the ball rolling.

 

The ball rolled along its familiar rut and resulted in another urgent but non‑traumatic amputation. The surgeon was sympathetic to his one‑legged patient’s future mobility and ensured that nerves were severed neatly and embedded more deeply in tissue that was strictly necessary. The femur was rounded and muscle mass gathered to enclose it, providing a firm muscular cushion for prosthetic use. Finally the stump, a little shorter than Herb had anticipated, was sutured to appear elegantly hemispherical from the front. When the hair regrew, it would be a fine example of a masculine stump. Practical and useful for the amputee and a fine example of surgical skill.

 

Herb discussed his options with the prosthetist. He was impatient to return to life as a double amputee with one stump and insisted it be casted to protect it from knocks and other threats while Herb was in his wheelchair. It was irregular but the prosthetist agreed and shortly Herb had a short white cast, nominally to merely protect the stump as agreed with he surgeon. Herb and the caster had changed the plans slightly and the cast extended up into Herb’s groin and extended slightly further than where his locked knee had formerly been. Thanks to the absence of flesh, the last twenty centimetres were perfectly cylindrical. The cast did not lie flat on the seat of the wheelchair. The tip was suspended. It looked immediately phallic and pitiable at the same time.

 

Duke was delighted at Herb’s return, after a shorter absence that expected. He was amused by the voice of his friend emanating from hip level. Herb invited him to run his hands over his stump cast. The cast felt familiar to Duke but its absence of length was shocking. As Herb had wanted, his long cast had been discarded in favour of a short version, easier to wear, more emphatic in appearance.

            – Are you going to be able to walk on that?

            – That is my intention, of course. Why do you think I made them give me a cast?

            – You’ll have to shorten your crutches.

            – I know. Why don’t you fetch them for me? And bring the toolbox.

Duke chuckled at being so quickly returned to his subordinate role as general assistant for his legless companion, his dedicated manfriend who acted as eyes when his blindness was insufficient. Herbie’s plastered stump was an enticing sensation and he hoped to run his fingers over the truncated flesh later in the evening.

 

The crutches needed no more alteration than shortening the lowest strut holding the rubber ferrule. Duke put his weight on the crutches as Herb sawed. Herb dared not attempt walking on his fresh stump yet. It would be a couple of months before he regained enough strength to swing his truncated leg between the short crutches. He closed his eyes and imagined how he would appear to others. The plaster cast on his thigh hinted at a fracture. What kind of tip would be best? A hemispherical rounded tip would look fine when he was seated in his wheelchair. A broad flat base would allow him to balance much more easily. He would have a word with his orthotist to persuade him to experiment. Few clients were ever willing to try anything new or unusual. Herb had seen old photographs of veterans returned from half forgotten wars negotiating their way along streets on two traditional wooden peg legs or even on only one, supported by elegantly flared axillary crutches. As long as he kept his stump, his half thigh, Herb could also experience mobility on a peg leg. First of all, something short to practise with, something which would not be alarmingly extrovert or inconvenient before he progressed to a full‑length pylon, tall and rigid. He could be two metres tall if he wanted and if suitable crutches could be found. He nodded his head and opened his eyes, content to have so many options available to him.

 

Duke’s vision deteriorated to such an extent that he had no night vision and could distinguish detail for only two or three degrees each side of his central vision. He was officially blind, although he made no attempt to have himself diagnosed as such. There was no advantage to the designation any longer. Herb watched his darting eyes and the look on his face when bright light caused him pain. Duke purchased a variety of opaque contact lenses and within a month or two, both men decided that the best design for Duke was a tinted white lens with tiny capillary veins crossing its surface. The lenses matched the whites of Duke’s eyes almost exactly and his eyes became mere white globes. The contacts blocked all vision except for the vaguest impression of light. Duke felt he had achieved his life’s main goal by the age of thirty‑eight—functional blindness. He was grateful for Herb’s understanding and appreciation of his desire and his need for the disability he had fetishised since he was a child. Herb had discovered his own fetish, if such it was, only as an adult after losing his long leg cast. The stumps he had tried and tested were amusing detours on the way to functional leglessness.

 

Herb took over the family business and ran it from home. He made regular visits to HQ for personal reports from his foreman and accountant. They became comfortable seeing the new boss, whom they had known previously, legless in a wheelchair. Herb owned two electric vehicles, both large enough to hold his wheelchair, but usually drove wearing a peg leg of some description. He had insisted that his employees keep abreast of technical developments and frequently subsidised visits to exhibitions and the like. His generosity paid off. His staff were loyal and the recycling company’s productivity was high. With a reliable income, Herb was able to spend time with Duke and they travelled widely throughout the Yorkshire Moors and the West Country, staying in small family‑run bed and breakfast establishments with a history behind them. They were an odd couple. A blind man with a cane who seemed to be the equal of the other man who balanced on a pair of wooden crutches and an old‑fashioned peg leg, familiar to anyone who had seen stories of pirates and the like. Herb owned several long peg legs, from the most utilitarian aluminium strut to a collection of gloriously ornate wooden peg legs, all of them rigid from top to tip, which the man somehow swung along between his crutches. It had taken him years to become accustomed to walking on a solitary rigid wooden peg leg which rendered him a metre ninety tall. On return visits to enjoyable locations, they were welcomed as old friends, both men being sufficiently extraordinary to make a lasting impression on their hosts.

 

The couple’s routine at meals was nothing less than extraordinary. All of Herb’s jackets had epaulets which Duke gripped while Herb lowered himself onto a seat. He usually dislodged his peg leg and directed Duke to place it to one side with his crutches. Duke pushed his friend closer to their table and sat opposing him, calmly awaiting Herb’s low‑voiced description of their surroundings and an update on which guests had paid them most attention. On most such occasions, Herb ensured that his stump was not obviously on display but he was not ashamed of it nor of displaying it deliberately or otherwise. He drew the line at never exposing his naked stump in public. He was not such an extreme exhibitionist and he knew very well how phallic the stump could appear. Herb was intensely proud of being left with such a severe disability which commanded attention from casual onlookers. Whether he was legless in a wheelchair or bravely making his way on a short tapered leather stubby or swinging a single magnificent long wooden peg leg, women looked from the aberrant leg to the trim muscular figure topped with a fine masculine face, handsomely stubbled, with a humourous twinkle in his eyes. It was the face of a confident man aware of his advantageous attributes.

 

Duke was fond of the hairy cylinder of meat below Herb’s hips and Herb enjoyed feeling Duke’s fingers exploring his naked body and stump when they found the time and inclination to spend an intimate moment with each other. Herb described Duke’s beard—how it was gaining more grey and how it suited him. Duke no longer used nocturnal blindfolds nor daily contact lenses unless Herb wanted to see a particular design. Glaucoma had destroyed his vision except for some light perception and two irregular spots of vision which indicated if there was a light source below him. His eyes appeared normal—handsome brown eyes dark enough to appear exceptional, attractive to the opposite sex. The illogical movements of his eyes were the most disturbing aspect of his blindness, except for when he wore his white contacts, and he sported fashionable black sunglasses in public. Alerted by the regular tap of his cane, the public had enough warning to make room for Duke as he navigated his way.

 

The two invalids grew to know each other over the years, as couples often do. Neither of the men were homosexual and neither regarded the occasional mutual sexual gameplay as indicative of it. They compared themselves to other male couples like Sherlock Holmes and Dr Watson, or the flippant pairing of Bertie Wooster and his manservant Jeeves. Duke took umbrage at the comparison with Jeeves.

 

            – I may be your legs, my friend, but at least Jeeves was paid for his troubles.

            – Don’t complain and don’t you think it’s about time for an aperitif?

            –Ah! Are you finished for today?

            – I’m finished for the rest of the week. I thought we might spend a long weekend around Castle Howard, unless you have something else planned?

            – Of course not. That sounds wonderful. Are we taking the big car?

            – I thought so. I like to have you sitting beside me rather than behind me. I like being able to glance at your handsome face when you ask things.

            – And I like being able to place my hand on your stump.

            – Ah yes. That was the other reason.

 

It was towards the end of the impromptu journey that Duke admitted that he had been suffering from pain in his useless eyes and that he would appreciate it if Herb would help him make an appointment with an ophthalmologist. Herb was immediately concerned by his friend’s situation, bearing in mind his own brushes with cancer. He need not have worried. The pain was a natural result of the ultimate deterioration of Duke’s eyeballs due to glaucoma. For patients who could afford it, the best solution was enucleation, the surgical removal of eyes from their sockets. Herb thought it sounded horrific and expressed his shock and sympathy. Duke himself regarded the process as the culmination of what he had voluntarily started during his university years. He would never have light perception again. His only concern was for Herb, who would always be subject to the disturbing sight of his eyeless condition. Duke was assured that his eye sockets would be ideal for fitting with whatever design of eye his seeing partner preferred in accordance with the shape of socket available to him. In advance of Herb’s preferences, Duke requested that his first pair of glass eyes bear irises of the most extreme pale blue with black and grey streaks for definition. The prostheses were beautiful in and of themselves. Duke learned to place the glass eyes into his empty sockets himself but never without Herb’s presence and gentle guidance.

 

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